Today is one of those days when nothing has seemed to go my way. I had planned to do a lot of work, but it seemed like i was lost in some daze. Caught up in memories of the past and the present, somewhere in a wait. A wait for what, i really don't know, if it is to go home or something more?
I sat staring at the rain all day, knowing i should get up and get on my way. But something seemed to hold me down, was it the weight of some fear unwound?
I watched the phone, wishing it to ring, i stared at the chat and waited for a blink. But when my phone rang, i didn't pick it up, and when friends tried to chat i refused to reply back. I counted the days over and over, thinking that would make the count go lower. But nothing that i tried seemed to reduce this un-understandable need within, nor the pain i felt i was in.
Was it a cup of coffee with friends or was it a simple meal beside my parents? I couldn't figure out what it was, but all i knew was that i was lost.
As i write this down, my heart feels lighter, somewhere as if i have found all the answers. But i know the minute i turn my light out, all these questions will once more hunt me down. Trying to be positive i tell myself, i guess it is one of those days i should count, as something that made my thoughts profound...
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hey!! i found the link!! :)
okok.. i could feel something was wrong with you coz i didnt see you! somehow somewhere i too felt sad, that feeling of loneness made me go mad. then i read what you had penned and found all answers to my discontent. but like you said, once i turn off this machine i would go back n think how your thoughts lost all it's glitter and sheen!
Hey sweetie, it's ok 2 feel d way u do. jus remember dat wid each passing sec, v get closer 2 gettin home.
hey alison is right! the home sick effect lingers on everyday for us.. those r one of THE DAYS in france! ul pull thru!
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