Leisure

When people give advice, why do i cringe? Why do i always take it in the negative sense? I get upset, i feel sad, i feel at once that i am a burden. The first thought that comes to my mind, is to run away and hide.
This is why mostly i prefer to live alone, to live my life and do what i want. I am not like other people i think, i prefer staying home to partying. I can talk to people and be all happy, but after a point i need my space. Is it wrong to be like this, no i think its not. I can take close ones and be with them, as long as they let me be myself. I like going out and seeing new things, but i cant spend everyday out in the streets.
Given a choice i prefer to stay indoors, watch movies or read a book. Or simply spend the day chatting with friends. This is what i never had time to enjoy back home, days spent with just my soul. Nowhere to rush to, no deadlines to meet, a life where earning money wasn't the only feat.
These months here i know are for me, a time to learn and increase my knowledge and skills. But i think of it and tell myself, no i want to just relax and take it as a vacation. I don't want to wake up in the morning with the thought of work, i don't want to sleep with a deadline on my mind. I don't want to spend my time feeling guilty, looking at the clock and telling myself, uma u don't have so much time to waste. I want to waste time, i want to sleep, i want to sit doing absolutely nothing. It's only 7 months that i have, before i go back to my routine. Before i go back to mad days and work work work, i want to soak in this feeling of leisure.